continued perseverance....

I was really enjoying life with less headaches and muscle spasm. The fall went by in a hectic blur of activity. My days were filled with me trying to do as much as I could. I was exercising everyday, and doing household chores with out a skullbusting headache. I have been cooking more and even baking.
Two weeks ago I thought that it would be ok to throw the soccer ball to warm the keeper on Jessica's soccer team up. I only threw the ball to her about eight times, but I guess that it was eight too many....I have had terrible headaches since and two days ago it turned into the skullbuster again.
Once again, I really do not know how I am going to get through this,....I know that I will, but I wonder how

Freedom

Two weeks ago I found a recumbent bike, that I thought that I could ride. I have not been able to go for a bike ride in more than five years. I used to frequently go for bike rides with Samuel and Jessica. So, I asked Steven if he could buy me an early birthday present, and he did. I can ride this bike. I love riding this bike. The first ride along the river, with Jessica...I cried happy tears of joy. Until something lost or taken away...we do not appreciate it fully! I am getting better and I love every minute of it. I am so thankful to be able to be more active and productive.

so near the surface!!!

I have had more good days than bad in the last month for the first time in three years. I love the feeling of no headache at all and even with the lesser headache that I have been having when I do too much, I feel better than I was. I am very tired with the medication, so I drink a lot of coffee during the day to offset that. I like coffee...so that is not so bad. Anyway, because I have been feeling better the last month has been full of lots of laughs and fun. I exercise everyday, and found a bike that I can ride, so I go for nice bike rides by the river....JOY!!!! I love getting better, and dream of more, and working!!!

re-surfaceing

I am not yet there...but feel like I am on my way. I had 8 days headache free and since have had bouts of headaches in trying to find the right dose of my new drug. Too much makes me nauseated and too dizzy, too little and....well the nasty headache comes back much too quickly. I feel better by far overall though and am enjoying it. The nice weather, and having a pool in the backyard has helped. I am using the pool as my physiotherapy right now. Other than the weather, the flowers and fresh lettuce and peas are also a bonus, when you can just step into your yard and pick...what a treat!!

resurfacing...maybe

I have been having trouble ever since I fell down the stairs on May 29th. I kept thinking and saying tomorrow will be a better day...and it was not coming. So, Finally I went to my Doctor again and said I can not stand the side effects of these medications that are not helping anymore. Maybe I should of had more patients with them, but I am running out. My pharmacist had suggested a different drug, which a friend of mine had suggested a few years ago. Although back then I did not know what I know now about the cause of my headache and neck muscle tightness and spasm. My Doctor was quite willing to try it...so day 4 of the new drug and lots of rest. It is not making a difference that I can tell yet but, I do feel better being off of the gabbapentin. Wish me luck, I will blog again as I am feeling better.

spring flowers

I love watching the flowers grow...I have been having trouble with my blood pressure being too low this last week, I fainted once and fell down the stairs. Now my headache is worse, so I am trying to stay positive and enjoy the "flowers"..... :)

precious

Today is Mom and Dad's anniversary, and all I can think about is how lucky we are to have them in our lives to share time with and enjoy their company, their love, and most of all their wisdom.